I close my eyes, I see you..

God gave me the gift of memory

that I might close my eyes and see

the ones I love, and who love me..... :)

Kacak. Senyum ye kacak? Kacak punya saya. ghee~ :)

When I Fall In Love

This is what Celion Dion said...

When I fall in love,
it will be forever,
or I'll never fall in love.
In a restless world,
like this is love is ended before its begun
and too many moonlight kisses
seem to cool in the warmth of the sun.

When I give my heart
it will be completely
or I'll never give my heart,
or let me give my heart
And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too
is when I'll fall in love
with you...

And this is what H.I.M said..

Loves the funeral of hearts,
And an ode for cruelty,
When angels cry blood
On flowers of evils in blooms
And a plea of mercy,
When love is a gun separating me and you..


So, how now? what is next? =)

I wish for your honesty.

For you
I have a simple wish
Not unkind or otherwise
Just a wish for your entire life...
I wish you honesty.

Honesty
for you between your own heart and mind
And also the hearts and minds of others...
I'll wish that you believe what you hear yourself say
And trust that others will do the same ...

For you,
your acts will admonish your thoughts
If what you say is really what you feel ...
In years to pass I shall remember
My honesty to you and yours to me

I shall wonder if you were honest with me ...
If I take long in deciding
I shall add together what it cost me
Honesty is free but priceless
So what we shared is beyond human value to me ...

If in your own mind
you believe you were not honest with me
We shall part as friends.

If in your own mind
you believe you are honest with me
I am yours...

I WAS DEAD

I was dead
I came alive
I was tears
I become laughter
All because of Love
* * *
When if arrived
My temporal life
from then on
changed to eternal
* * *
Love said to me
You are not
crazy enough
you don’t fit this house
I went and
Become crazy
Crazy enough
To be in chains
Live said
Your are not
Intoxicated enough
You don’t
Fit the group
I went and
Got drunk
Drunk enough
To over flow
With light – headedness
Love said
You are still
Too clever
Filled with
Imagination and skepticism
I went and
Become gullible
And in fright
Pulled away
From it all
Love said
You are a candle
Attracting everyone
Gathering everyone
Around you
I am no more
A candle spreading light
I gather no more crowds
And like smoke
I am all scattered now
Love said
You are teacher
You are a head
And for everyone
You are a leader
I am no more
Not a teacher
Not a leader
Just a servant
To your wishes
Love said
You already have
Your own wings
I will not give you
More feathers
And then my heart
Pulled itself apart
And filled to the brim
With a new light
Overflowed with fresh life
Now even the heavens
Are thankful that
Because of love
I have become
The giver of light

Aku adalah tulang rusuk siapa?

10hb 10 2010.....

Hari jadi Ayahanda ke 70..

Adakah Allah Al-Mujib, Yang Maha Pengkabul , akan mengijap kabulkan daku bersama seorang lelaki yang akan hidup bersama daku hingga ke akhirat?

Namun, siapa?

Siapa tuan badan daku?

Sudahkah daku bersedia?

Bersedia untuk memikul tanggungjawab.
Bersedia untuk berkhidmat.
Bersedia untuk berjuang.
Bersedia untuk berkorban.

Kekasih lama?
Oh tidak sama sekali...
tidak mahu daku bergelumang di dalam dosa lagi..
sudah daku tekad taubat nasuha.

Kekasih gelap?
Oh tidak daku tahu sama sekali..
Adakah kami akan dijodohkan?

Kekasih hati?
Oh Tidak berani untuk daku meluahkannya..

Siapakah orangnya?
Siapakah yang akan menerima daku?
Siapakah yang akan membimbing daku?
Siapakah yang akan memahami daku?
Siapakah yang akan menjaga daku?
Siapakah yang akan membahagiakan daku?
Siapakah yang akan hidup senang bersama daku?
Siapakah yang akan memberi jaminan syurga padadaku?

Siapakah orangnya?
Siapakah yang akan daku terima?
Siapakah yang akan daku dijadikan teman berbual?
Siapakah yang akan daku memahami?
Siapakah yang akan daku bahagiakan?
Siapakah yang akan daku menjadi tulang belakangnya?
Siapakah yang akan daku uruskan hidupnya?

Oh Allah Al-Wajid, Yang Maha Penemu, jodoh daku terletak di tanganMu. Namun, Kau makbulkanlah doa Ayahanda dan doaku untuk di ijab kabul kan di hari lahir nya yang ke 70. Temukanlah jodoh daku secepat mungkin agar hati ini tidak lagi gundah gelana memikirkan ketentuanMu yang tidak dapat dijangka. Hanya padaMu Allah Ak-Muqtadir daku memohon.